Monday, August 4, 2014

I'm Only A Child

This is a fight with myself
To choose the toy i hold
Or that on the shelf

Its sparkle could only be a reflection
From the glass that conceals its imperfection
Wrapped in a shiny new cover
Sheathed with secrets yet to discover

How long have i had this one
Together so many battles lost and won
It feels fragile within my palm
Been years since it has lost its charm

The glitter blurs my vision
I can’t help but marvel at the precision
My heart reaches out, hands hesitate
Foot holds ground, imagination levitates

How many such toys have claimed my desire
But its the fear of throwing this one into a pyre
It’s fragile, but it’s mine
Charmless, yet it’s mine

Tomorrow another store, something new to fancy
A hope to harbor, which reality can’t see
You’d wonder how I’m so easily beguiled
After all, I’m only a child

Monday, October 14, 2013

Journey

Life's a journey they say
A new adventure everyday
But what do we seek?
With no abode and sustenance meek
Where do we head?
With our visions dead and conscience dead

Do you still hear the voice inside?
Or did you shed a tear when it just died
Did you into a new expanse foray
And feel like the picture of Dorian Gray
An ugly reflection of yourself
A curious wanderer gone astray

Familiar faces will disappear soon
And not just others', but yours too
It takes a descent from the good to the vile
You'll forget the arch of your brow
The curve of your smile

A journey you wish you'd never begun
Stuck in the web you've gradually spun
When every eye sees you as cold as stone
Lacking hope and patience outworn
Ask yourself - how long
Till I journey alone?

Tuesday, October 9, 2012

Running Out


It started with a crack
And then became worse
There was no turning back
It seemed like a curse

I could see myself spout
I was running out

It began with a drip
And then it flowed
I watched as it all slipped
On and on it poured

It was hell bent to flout
I was running out

First escaped interest
Followed by joy
Emotions I couldn’t arrest
Those you help destroy

Fear was next
Anger and hatred pursued
Drainage as such had but one effect
It had ended the feud
Eventually left anguish with a final clout
I was running out

There was nothing you could do
Nor could I
Besides indifference awaiting you
I've bled dry

Here I stand, facing this drought
I have run out

Monday, September 10, 2012

Destiny's mistress



                 You wouldn’t recognize her if you saw her a second time. She was just another face on the streets. The harshness of life had wiped out all innocence from her face. At 14 she was already a woman. Her ragged clothes displayed hints of abused flesh. The sound of the arriving train was her only comfort. She leaped into it before it could make a proper halt. This was her heaven, her fortress of solitude, amidst the hustle and bustle of daily life.
                  She fidgeted with the pebbles that were her source of earning a living while she thought what song is it going to be today.
                  She began with her daily routine. Some old hindi songs you might’ve heard her sing but never really listened to. She made her way up and down the general coach her eyes gazing at every face eagerly. You might’ve flipped a penny her way but you don’t know whom you gave it to. Because you wish she hadn’t been a part of the same society you belonged to. Because people like her are not meant to be seen, heard or spoken to. You heard her sing but you wouldn’t spot her in a crowd. She was like that old broken radio that no one cared about. It sputtered out few words at times but you never knew who the face behind it was.
                  A few coins jingling between her dirt ridden fingers and she was ready to try her luck elsewhere. She got off the train and you didn’t even ask her, her name.

Sunday, September 9, 2012

unforgettable memories


Beyond the never ending horizon
As the sun silently slipped
It took down with it
Many yesterdays those once were now
Many secrets and unspoken vows

The anonymous sensation
As we first entered the college gates
The multiple reasons
For our ROFLMAO states

The warm smiles that made us feel just right
The cool professors or the maniacs who gave us such a fright

The pals that made boring lectures so much fun
Be it pranks or jokes they taught us how it’s done

They’d be there for you at the drop of a hat
They’d do all your work for you and yet call you a brat

Across the classroom, spotting your crush
The return of your gaze, followed by the embarrassed blush

The first heartbreak and the tears no one really saw
That made us think it’s the end of the world
And numbness that would gnaw

Those chiding of friends that made you move on
They’d readily punch people who used you as a pawn

They made making memories so effortless
College defined fun minus any stress

It just so happens, every good thing comes to an end
They say from here on it’s a jungle and only for yourself you fend
But whoever said that ain't acquainted with the 21st century trends
Everybody leaves but never a friend.

Thursday, June 7, 2012

The Void



He stared hard at the sculpture standing upright, smiling at everyone who passed by, trying to remember how her face had looked while she wore the same grin on her face time and again. He could faintly feel her fragrance or maybe it was just a figment of his imagination.
“Avinash?” he heard someone say and it drew him back to reality. It was his wife, Lata. She smiled at him understandingly and said, “It is about time.” A silent nod and they made their way towards the grand iron gates.
The front lawn was bustling with people, animatedly talking amongst themselves. As Avinash and Lata walked in through the gates all eyes turned towards them. Some giving them sympathetic gazes, some whispering under their breaths, citing the tragic incident to the people around but no one spoke to either of them.
Slowly Avinash made his way to the main entrance where a large band of ribbon awaited. Lata handed him the pair of scissors. The ribbon snapped with an almost inaudible crunch and a round of applause followed. Everyone was lead to the main auditorium.
The name “Meghna Roy Memorial Trust” embedded on the wall welcomed them. The auditorium was a small one accommodating not more than fifty people at a time, but it had a homely feeling to it. Everybody rushed in to find themselves a place to sit.
Avinash made his way to the center of the stage, cleared his throat and spoke,” Two years ago, today, I would never have imagined in my wildest dreams that I would be standing here addressing you people. But destiny has a way with everything and we always end up where we are destined to be. As you all know this trust means more than anything to me as it is founded in the sweet memory of my late wife Meghna Roy. Meghna was not only my wife but a companion in the true sense. She stood by me through thick and thin and it almost reduces me to tears to know that I was absent in her hour of need.  You all must’ve read about the tragedy in the newspapers and news channels. And there is no detail of that incident unknown to anybody present here today. Meghna fought till her last breath and her death has made me undertake this fight against all those people out there who hold no respect for women whatsoever. They are not fit to be called humans, beasts maybe but nothing worthy of a decent death let alone a decent life.  Meghna Roy Memorial Trust extends its hands to all those girls and women in need of our help. We promise to stand tall with you against all odds and fight till justice is served. But in return we expect everyone out there to come forth and help us to help you. Let’s make a difference. And let’s begin today.
As Avinash said those last words the whole auditorium echoed with a deafening ovation. Handing over the mike to the host of the function he took his place in the front row. Lata sat beside him. She placed her hand on his shoulder soothingly; they exchanged silent stares. Somewhere Lata caught a glimpse of a tear that Avinash was probably trying hard to hold back.
He reminded her of the day he had first come to see her. His mother sat next to him praising him all along. He seemed a little withdrawn but Lata was immediately smitten by him. The usual tradition of serving tea and introduction was carried out. They were both then left alone to talk. It broke her heart when Avinash spoke bluntly about not being interested in this union. He spoke about his previous wife and made it clear to Lata that the struggle to get her justice would be his first priority. Nevertheless it was too late for Lata to deny the Proposal. She was impressed by Avinash’s personality and his dedication to fight for his wife had earned her respect.  The wedding was carried out simply and without any pomp on Avinash’s request. But Lata didn’t mind. She knew where her life was headed and she accepted it with courage and decided to stand by her husband in his strife to get Meghna the justice she deserved.
                                                                                                --x--
It wasn’t long before Avinash too was lost deep in his thoughts.

“Avinash you’re late. How many times do I have to tell you, I don’t like waiting?”
“I’m really sorry Meghna but I had to make an excuse. My mother already doubts there’s something fishy between us. I couldn’t get out of the house any earlier.”
“I really hate meeting up like this. Why can’t we get married? We won’t have to deal with all their suspicions then.”
“Why don’t you understand? Our parents won’t approve of our marriage. My mother belongs to a conservative family and would want only a Bengali as her daughter-in-law. And your parents would never approve of me as well because you are a Gujarati and you people can’t even stand the stench of fish leave alone a fish eating son-in-law.”
Meghna had playfully hit him at his untimely joke.
                                                                                                --x--
The function went on smoothly without much of a hassle as Avinash kept drifting in and out of such memory flashes.
That night as he lay in his bed Avinash smiled at the thought when he had first laid eyes on Meghna. He was in the 8th grade. An introvert as everyone called him. She was new to his school yet everybody took a liking for her, but none as much as Avinash. It was love at first sight for him. Her smile had drawn all the attention towards her. No one missed out on her effervescence. He knew somewhere that she had taken notice of him too. They soon became friends and went on to become lovers. Their friends called them soul mates, only to make them blush. Time flew by and strengthened their bond. They got married against their families’ wishes. They knew their parents would eventually come around, and they did in time. They both were well settled in life and had just begun making plans for their own future. They didn’t have the slightest clue that life had different plans for them.
                                                                                                --x—
The articles in the paper giving details about Meghna’s death flashed in front of Avinash.  It had read that Meghna, 30 years old, had been working late that night. She got into the cab, the agency that hired her, had provided. There were two more people in the cab besides her and the driver. A fellow colleague she recognized from another department and a man she had never met. The driver drove to a secluded place where she was gang-raped by the three men and strangled to death. The culprits have been caught but the final hearing is still awaited.
Avinash dryly smirked. How arid it was for the journalists. Just an article that would possibly make the front page or maybe just a column in the last one. They could never capture her turmoil in those hundred words that made their living; couldn’t hear her scream as she was repeatedly exploited by three strange men; couldn’t spot the tears that might’ve escaped in a silent prayer to send someone to save her; not even her embarrassment as she lay there, her body covered in nothing but blood. She must’ve been feeling ashamed at how her clothes lay in tatters all around her; she must’ve stopped screaming at a point, he thought, knowing it was futile. She must’ve prayed for it to be over soon. She must’ve become immune to the ache as her fragile body unwillingly surrendered to their will; she must’ve thought how it would kill me to see her; my Meghna, my beautiful and lovely Meghna tossed like an abused doll on that abandoned street like that. She must’ve hoped for death to come to her sooner than later. No, they couldn’t see anything.
Lata who had been watching him all along reached out and wiped the tears that had unknowingly flowed down his cheek. Startled by her sudden gesture he wiped his eyes, turned his back at Lata and continued gazing into the void. And there in the dead of the night lay two souls, each craving for the love that would never be theirs to claim for eternity.